piątek, 29 czerwca 2012

last on kremerowska.

again, the stories of my life are packed to a few boxes. as someone said whole atmosphere and climate of my room, I will take with me, in a bag. it's so weird, 6-month story now I can put into a bag, in a one evening. and bear somewhere, to a place that whole stuff will be waiting, for a new ada's story. everything I can be happy of, is that there are people in my world that they will never say "no", and will help everytime, even they are in similar situation.
now it's time to force every kind of strenght, that I've got in my mind, to make everything as I want.

even that all my stuff is packed to a boxes, I am free. I can do everything I like now. a look for everything is good to me. feel what means 'good to me".
5 minutes on Kremerowska, just for last cigarette.

finally I became Dylan, without any direction home.  

czwartek, 21 czerwca 2012

cookies 2.

I've made two cups of tea. unfortunately, just for myself.
everything's going to be changed. from a people arround, for a place to live, for a feelings. 
I so think about winter, well it's natural to me. to miss something, that not exist in the moment I am.
I am still baking very emotional brooches:









My own Stars, turkeys:



piątek, 15 czerwca 2012

day by day.

chestnuts are overblown. I am walking by the city, with sunglasses on, even it's very rainy day. I am dreaming not to meet anyone I know. ada never cries, though.


I feel like I am dancing in the dark. I don't know where to go, I haven't ever seen any way, I don't know which one way to take. What my body tells me? What my breath means? Is there a kind of life in my thirsty body. Where am I? My eyes are so tired, just as my mind.


trees and mountains, in a woman's psyche are supposedly a symbols of masculinity. and their tops are actually quite realistically unreal top of existance.

one day my roomates took key to our apartment, for their trip to another part of Poland. two crazy days, I didn't knew what is happening. dancing, drinking all night in Kazimierz, sleeping    at friends bed. calling everywhere to find help. we've made a kind of robbery to our own room. thank God, I lost opened window, while we were going out! 

so, there is happening, a moment of decisions, after 3,5 month I want everything to change again.